...B.C. strikes again

I continue to see amazing blessings all around me...
God answering prayers, uplifting His servants, blessing their efforts...
so of course, B.C.[basement cat] feels the need to impose himself on my life...
trying to bring me down, 'cause you know he just hates to see me smiling...

and he is really, insidiously sneaky...

he tries to pile up the usual holiday blues with my financial situation...
a deadly combination that can get to the most optimistic of souls...
my assorted aches & pains, not to mention being a bit tired & stressed...
with yet more painful reminders of just how badly I've screwed things up...

&, there it is, depression... lurking on the horizon...

but I'm NOT giving in to self-pity...

I may be broke, but God has promised to provide for me...
I have NO idea how... but He's promised...
I have to deal with the consequences of all my stupidity...
I hope to become a better person, but that takes time...

I've earned the uncomfortable place that I occupy...
as it were, "a sentence that I must serve"...

this is not a pity party, just the facts...

so, B.C.... you & your minions can go straight back to where you came from...
I don't want to play your self-centered games anymore...
if I "go down", I will not take anyone else down with me...

may all that I must bear, be for the glory of God...
and any blessings gained by bearing it...
be used to bless those who I have hurt...
or antagonized by my self-centered behavior...

God is good, all the time...
and He will deliver me from poverty, fear & loneliness...