...connecting the dots

regular readers know all too well of my "conundrums"...

looking for my path...
looking for work...
looking for answers...
looking for the way...

looking for the right puzzle pieces...
the first "domino" to fall...

in the last 2 years, there's been "movement"...

periods of time when there was major "wobble"...
but something would always stop the progress...
and I'd end up feeling worse that I had before...

like a failure... a loser...

and depression would gather its clouds...
shrouding my heart & mind in gloomy confusion...

so my only thought was that I must have lessons still to learn...

and I'd struggle...

trying to do what I thought that I should...
with limited & spotty results...

then last week, I began to see some positive action...

I decided to attend the Dave Ramsey seminar after all...
[I nearly slept through the informational meeting...
but got an unexpected phone call, waking me up...
and getting me there...]

my TSA check arrived on Friday...
just one week after the transfer was OKed...
[that's very quick for them...]

then there was the advertisement that appeared...
on my "your post has been successful" page...
[the only one I've seen before or since...]
about a weight-loss method...

I clicked on it...

the Gabriel Method is unlike any other weight-loss program I've seen...

for a nominal fee [less than $40...]
I received a paperback book which I'm reading...
and several downloads of CDs...

the thesis is very scientific...

it approaches the psychological aspects of self...
addressing the kinds of mental, emotional & spiritual eating dysfunctions...
explaining that they must be worked through...
and how to deal with them...

the author lost 220 lbs using this approach...
with the last 110 lbs coming off quicker than the first...
with no specific diet or exercise program...
just by dealing with his mental & emotional dysfunctions...

but what struck me, was not just the weight-loss aspects...
but the spiritual ramifications...
& how they connect with things that I've been struggling with...

I know these ideas work...
I've experienced them myself for a couple of months...
a couple of years ago...
so I believe this...I know it works...

in a nutshell...

visualizing "positive" outcomes...
during an "alpha" or "theta" state of consciousness...
meditation... if you will...

since I have successfully used self-hypnosis in the past...
this doesn't set off any feelings of discomfort on my part...

the author speaks of believing in positive outcomes...
which for me, slides into having a "trusting, relationship" with God...

not being concerned...
just trusting that I will have "enough"...

so even though he's speaking...
of working through mental/emotional dysfunction...
with weight-loss in mind, by removing fear, loneliness or depression...
it is actually a roadmap for a healthy relationship with God...
with better health just a neat side effect...

the difference in my state of mind has been drastic...
and immediate...

the sermon on "tearing down walls" on Sunday...
underscored everything...
[all sermons & devotional readings have been that way...
for the last week, anyway...]

so I find myself feeling better than I have in a while...

and as I continue to be positive...
I keep getting more & more encouragement...
that this is the right direction...

so much that I read or hear these days, resonates so deeply...
that the dots are connecting...

can the falling dominoes be far behind ?

God is good...