Thursday, September 25, 2008

...toothless in Mudville



I just talked to the vet tech who was assisting...
and the Piglet is now "toothless"...
she will be spending the night ...
coming home tomorrow with more anti bacterial & pain meds...

she will be "in recovery" for a couple of days...
which, knowing her means "totally pissed off" at me...
for quite some time...
although...as she heals...she should regain her haughty persona...
[I hope so... pitiful, just isn't her...]

so besides all this happening as I slept the day away...

my last visit to Miz Minka's...
was apparently her # 10,000... WOW...
I saw that sitemeter said 9999 visitors, but was so "out of it"...
I didn't "get" the significance...

so before I wander back to my bed...
[I've been "up" too long...]
I'd like to congratulate MM on an always interesting...
& often inspiring blog...
and on her now 10,000+ visitors...

I might get there...in 5 or 6 years...maybe...
here's hoping that she will someday celebrate #100,000...
hopefully... I'll be here to see that too...

...floating



floating... in the stillness...

I can see the gentle turning of the glass wind chime...
as it joins the leaves in their subtle swaying...
as the breath of the marine layer insinuates itself into the morning...

like the fog...when it comes on cat's feet...
the mere stirring in the air currents...
of the cooler, damper air...
comes in utter silence...

last week, the fall breezes brought song after song...
to the assembled wind chimes...
the blue jay screeched his verses...
and the trees joined in for the chorus...

today...the stillness is broken by the hum of my computer...
the distant garbage truck claiming its' spoils...
the gurgle of the cat water fountain...
my lovely clock striking "3 quarters past the hour..."

but I'm floating...

brain swathed in the murky befuddlement of fever...
but at that point... where I've ceased to rail against it...
I've embraced it...have allowed myself to "be sick"...
so that I may "be well"...

as an intoxicated person always believes them self to be glib...
in control... entertaining...& lovable...
this fever has intoxicated me and I am at peace....

floating...as in warm waters...

unconcerned with the reasons for my buoyancy...
just content to float...and be...

and while the world seems to hold it's breath...
as God touches my fevered brow with His cooling fingers...
healing my body as well as my soul...
I am thankful for His love and care..

I think of my Piglet kitty...
in surgery even as I write this...
and pray that this procedure will give her lasting relief...
and I'm grateful that Lacy has stopped sneezing...
and seems much better today...

and for all those blessings...
the ones I see... and the ones I don't...
I am.. so grateful...

God is so good...

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

...bite me, Piglet style



if you are a regular reader...
you know of Piglet's mouth lesions...
due to an immune system problem...

my vet was going to have a vet dentist friend...
pull several of her teeth...
as that seems to help in this kind of situation...

it had been a couple of weeks since her last steroid shot...
and I knew she was starting to hurt again...
she was eating very tentatively...
and had started huddling next to me the last couple of days...

so today... as I was sleeping off this stupid virus...
that I don't have time for right now...
with Piglet snuggled as close as she could get...
and looking as pitiful as could be...
the phone rang...

it was one of the techs at my vets...
telling me that the surgery would be tomorrow...
so I needed to have her there around 8:00 AM...
with NO FOOD in the previous 8 hours...

I could have managed that with Pigs...
SHE wasn't eating anyway...
Fluff, on the other hand would have been VERY upset...
as she tends to eat little meals... OFTEN...

so... since Pigs was already at hand...
I scooped her up... and took her in then...

she was NOT happy...
but was soon resigned to her fate...
I know she didn't expect to be left there...
and is at this very moment...I'm quite sure...
plotting some terrible revenge...

as I sit writing this...
through the fever fog of whatever this is...
I can hear the rumble of the treat ball...
being plied for it's goodies in the LR...

Lacy is looking much better after the medicine for her cold...
[I haven't heard a sneeze in hours...]
I need to go back to bed...
I wore myself out doing the trash & cat boxes this AM...
then making a run to the store for soda crackers...
Sprite... soup... deli turkey breast...
and frozen mac & cheese...

also carrot juice...yogurt...yogurt shots[immune booster]
milk... Hershey's syrup... and malted milk powder...

they don't carry malted milk powder at Raleys...
so I stopped on my way home from dropping off the Piglet...
and got some...as well as the Sprite I forgot earlier...
[I am VERY fuddled at the moment... as a result...
THIS post is taking a lot more effort than usual...]

one of the managers of the SMART Foods store I was in...
was a band student of mine...probably 15 years ago...
but today... another young man in an apron...
who I recognized right away as a former student...
[their eyes never change...nor does their smile...]
said,"excuse me, are you a teacher?"

since I recognized his face, I cut to the chase...
and told him I remembered him...
he had been in one of my English/reading classes...
in the last 4 years I taught...

he mentioned a Japanese anime movie,"Princess Mononoke"...
that I used to have the sub show when I was absent...
[the kid's good behavior for the sub would affect what I left
the next time I had to be gone...a test or a film...their choice...]

he mentioned how much he had liked that film...
and how it had gotten him into that genre...

it never fails to amaze me how some little thing you do...
can so impact someones life...for years...

it's probably been 6 or 7 years since he was in my class...
but he still remembered that film...

I told him that his manager had also been a student of mine...
the way he grinned, I'm sure they'll be comparing "Miz B" stories soon...

when I was a kid...we never went to "town"...
without seeing someone who had been a student of Mom's...
even in her later years...people would stop her on the street...
to reconnect with her...to tell her how important she'd been to them...


when she had to have a complete hysterectomy in 1990...
to remove a pre-cancerous growth...
and was hospitalized in Fresno at St Agnes...
I arrived one day, on my long commute from Mudville...
to find her asleep...
with a young man I didn't know...
sitting there as she slept...

he introduced himself as one of her "former students"...
telling me that Mom was his favorite teacher...
and that he owed her a lot... so he had come to pay his respects...
we chatted... and after a while... he left...

when Mom woke up... I told her that he had been there...
she was sorry that she had missed him...
she told me that he had had some learning disabilities...
that kept him from reading and as a third grader...
he was already way behind...and it was getting worse...

Mom recognized his disability... and worked with him...
special tutoring... and a large dose of encouragement...
worked for him... and he had gone on to succeed in school...
and later became a very successful businessman...

he had always given her credit for his success...
she would just say that she was in the right place...
at the right time...to be able to help...
it was her job... and she was glad to do it...

I have no unrealistic ideas about all the kids who were in my class...

I know that I wasn't the most important teacher in their lives...
[at least... not much past jr high...]

I'm just pleased when someone who had me during grades 7/8...
[when ALL adults who are authority figures are not to be trusted...]
remembers at least something from my class with a smile...

and goes out of their way to say...

"didn't you used to be my teacher?"...

that leaves a warmth that I know isn't fever...

...got cats ?, pt 2



rattle...rattle...thump, thump, thump...

of course...it's totally my fault for filling it...

at least THEY'RE having fun...
the virus is having it's way with me...
I'll spare you the details...
I'm just glad that I got cat food...
and watered all the outside plants yesterday....



MJ [Midnight, Jr... because he looks & acts like his daddy...]
is the first to figure out...
that the ball will give out treats...
if he plays with it...

Sneaky Pie, as always is "lurking"....
waiting for her chance...

you can't see her...
trust me...she's there...
and Thomas is watching her...
waiting for his chance...

oh... there it goes again...
rattle, rattle...thump...

maybe that's why I kept waking up last night...
[the ball rolling on the wood floors...
it WAS empty this morning...]

I was having weird fever dreams...
that were part TV show...part cartoon...
and VERY strange...

I HATE being sick when the weather is nice...
and I have SO much to do...



while I was "up"... feeding, watering & giving medicine...
[Lacy has a kitty cold...sneezing, etc...]
Lucyfur was showing off her prowess at toy mouse maiming...



tossing it high... running in circles...
then returning to subdue it all over again...



meanwhile... the Creamer/Gracie standoff continues...
if this was a video...[my brain IS NOT working properly...]
you could see that both are lashing their tails...

this did end "peacefully"....for now...

I'm going to take my sick self back to bed...

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

...got cats ?

this morning...I was out of cat food...

not for everybody...but for Piglet & Fluff...
the Fancy Feast cupboard was "bare"...
[this may NOT seem like much to you...
but I SLEEP with them...
and "hell hath NO fury..."]

watch this...you'll understand VERY quickly...
since "embedding was "disabled"...
please go to http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=JWFockl-rbY
[I'm sorry...it WILL NOT let me link either...
this is the "Got Milk?" catlady commercial...]

so now you know why even though I'm fighting some virus...
I got up...got dressed...
and dragged myself over to Discount Pet...

and after "awwwing" at the pictures of kittens for free...
I got a cart and made the rounds...

I got Tidy Cat litter...
[2 16 lbers, 2 35 lbers{on sale !}]

Fancy Feast...
[3 cases "chicken feast", 3 cases "turkey feast"]

6 packs of cat treats...
[because MM gave my gang a treat dispensing ball...]

and 2 catnip toys...
[because a "tweaked-out kitty", is a "happy kitty"...

I had all of this in my cart...
the 2 big litter pails stacked 2 high...
and was headed for the check-out...
when an earnest young lady rushed over to me...
looked at the 102 lbs of litter...
[especially the big one, on top of the other big one]

and said in a rather astounded, but also patronizing tone...
"My...did you lift all that in by yourself ?"

snarkily... I replied," yes...I had NO problem doing it..."

[her, still a bit patronizing]
"Well, I guess that's how you get in your workout"

[me, "snarkiness now dripping from every syllable]...
"you have no idea all the ways I "get in my workout"...
[showing most of my teeth... and batting my eyes...]

she chuckled...[oblivious...]

I chuckled back...[smiling, while trying to stifle the "snark"...]

thinking..."yeah.... just because there's gray in the hair...
crowsfeet on the face & fat on my butt...
doesn't mean that I'm helpless or inept..."

after paying [ARGH] and assuring her I could manage to load my car...

I went home...feeling a bit shaky from the virus...
[a little feverish, nauseous, headache, tired...]
which now occupied my attention...
since I wasn't preoccupied with being "macho"...
and schlepped it all on to the porch...

I carried the 2 35 lbers at the same time...
[I AM woman... hear me roar...]

[I'm going to bring it in after I "rest" a bit...]



I did however, bring in the bag with the treats to put in the ball...
AND the 2 cat toys...



while I was filling the treat ball toy...
I had a lot of "company"...
[the rattle of treats can be the "sirens song"...]
so I distracted them with a couple of scoops of this...


[notice who's snooping...?]

I got a sample in a litter pail...and they LOVED it...
it seems to be healthy...
[it has cranberries in it...]
and it hasn't caused widespread barfing or the runs...
[a change in diet can do that BIG TIME...]

so I filled the treat ball...



and rolled it on the floor...

they were startled... then investigated...

since not much had fallen out...
I opened the "hole" more...
and rolled it again...




Mattie, who has NEVER met a cat treat he didn't love...
came because of the "rattle"...
and after I shook some out...
began to get the idea...

I've been hearing the rattle...
of the hard knobby plastic ball on the hardwood floors...
as I've been writing this...

and will probably hear it A LOT MORE...
and AT NIGHT...ALL NIGHT LONG...

[thanks MM... I can hear you laughing...]

hummmmm...




Lucyfur was quick to pounce on one of the cat toys...
she's let me know that life has been BORING lately...
so I tossed it in her direction first...
Sneaky Pie, as ALWAYS... was "right there"...



and the moment Lucyfur's interest was diverted to the treat ball...
Sneaky Pie swooped in...grabbed the toy...
and just had to show it off...

Thomas, as usual... was having NONE of her shenanigans
I intervened BEFORE the fight began...


back when I was in the office, filling the treat ball...
I had both catnip toys setting on top of the cases of canned food...
Creamer ascended from her lair on high and snagged one...
drooling & carrying on something awful...
so I had tossed it to her...
up in "Creamer Land"...



when I returned to the office...
she was looking dazed & distraught...
I quickly saw the reason...
and returned her "fallen" toy to her aerie...
and watched as she happily resumed her play...

until I noticed this...



a jealous Gracie...glaring at Creamer...

I intervened here too...

and SO far... there's been peace....

at the moment...I can just see the tip...
of the sated Creamer's paw...
as she naps away her catnip hangover...

Gracie is sitting on the kitchen counter...
her new favorite perch...

waiting...

Monday, September 22, 2008

...sometimes...you just need a nap day



sometimes...in the midst of all you have to do...
you are overtaken by a nap...

you had good intentions...
even a list...

and... it IS Monday, after all...

maybe it was because today was the start...
of MY favorite time of the year...

maybe it was lunch...
[or the Dos Equis I had with it...]

or the 2 out of the last 3 nights with little sleep...

or the feeling of accomplishment I had...
sitting in the back yard...
grilling the marinated lamb...
at a cleaned off patio table...
enjoying "fall"...

whatever the contributing factors...
I have just "napped" the day away...

there were SO many years that I went to school [work]...
even when I was exhausted or feeling lousy...
because I had NO choice...

it wasn't that I was so special as to be irreplaceable...
it was just more work than it was worth...
to set-up a sub and then clean-up the mess...
and professional musicians who miss rehearsals or gigs...
don't get paid... and often don't get hired again...

during the last 5 or 6 years I taught...
[after the surgery... I was always tired...]
one of the guys in our brass quintet retired from teaching...

when we rehearsed, which was often, as we were busy...
the rest of us "working stiffs"[active teachers...]
kept kidding him about "all the time he had, being retired..."
"how the only places he had to go were the post office...
and the barber shop..."
always a laugh, since he was "follicle-ly challenged"...

he would laugh & say...
"just wait...time is like money...
you spend what you have..."

I now know how right he was...
the day can really "get away from you"...
like today... with this "nap" thing...

[yawn]

I still have that "nap headache"....
I've had it for the last day or so...
more weather change in my sinus, I guess...

[yawn]

since I'm now retired...
and have the time to nap...
I guess I'll go check for the mail...
[I get my hair cut on Friday...]

maybe I'll go to bed early tonight...

[y-a-w-n]

or maybe I'll take a short nap... before dinner...

[Y-A-W-N]



soundzzz good... zzzzzzzzzzz

...autumnal equinox



I love fall...


when I was younger...
the return of school was welcomed...
the promise of learning new things...
a new start... an end to summer boredom...
[country girl...]

the return of cooler weather...
the coziness of being inside when it was stormy...
the "harvest home"...
the approaching holidays...

the glorious bursts of foliage...
going to their death in flames...
a reminder of how sterile...
the cold, wet winter can be...


but as I've grown older...



it has become the light I look forward to...



as the direct, burning glare of summer mellows...
the sun seems to turn its' head sideways...
taking a last, warm, loving look at natures bounty...
before it turns away ...
leaving us to the dark, wet and cold...



the acuteness of the angle...
intensifies the depth of the color spectrum...
and the mists & haze in the air...
paint a last path of sunlight into our very beings...



and leaves glow...
as if with an inner fire...
blazing their presence into our very souls...
so we will not... we cannot... forget them...




the sky radiates an intense blue...
the perfect canvas for the clouds that are trying...
trying to gather the first rain...
washing the summer's dust from the soon to be splendid foliage...




and as the air chills... and the leaves turn...
the blue deepens to a shade...
that makes my soul ache for the sight of it...



the perfect counterpoint...
for the leaves...
as they become transient notes...
in a love song from God...