..."joy cometh in the morning..."

[caveat lector: this post contains some whining & venting...
but the ending is worth it...]



yesterday evening, at the DRamsey class...
it really hit me...

I didn't have enough money to make it through November...
unless I cashed in the last dinky IRA [$1500] & got it fast...
[I'd been saving it for my property taxes...
which are due Dec.10...]

I hadn't heard from VOPU, where I applied for a librarian job...
except to get one of my 2 applications back, for postage due...
I had weighed them both and put equal postage on each...
I know the one I sent to the Library got there...
because they e-mailed me the next day...
almost a week later, I got the "HR" one back, for $.17 more...
which I affixed & sent off in a new envelope...

that was a week ago, & I'd heard nothing more...

I was setting up some bills to be paid...
which got me to looking at my checking account...
and then I realized that I was on the edge of insolvency...



I have only been able to sleep for a short while lately...
but will then awaken in sheer panic from very bad dreams...
and early this morning was one of those times...



so following some very good advice I got a while ago...
I prayed... through the fear & panic...
through the tears and grief... and shame...
I praised God for all His gifts to me and for all these trials...
that are breaking me down, so that He can rebuild me...
and I accepted all the pain and hardship...

and then He spoke to me...

"He was planning good things for me"...
and that"...my willing acceptance of His will...
would bring me blessings, beyond measure..."

JUST TRUST AND BELIEVE IN HIS PROMISES...

soothed... and quite calm, I drifted off into a peaceful sleep...

when I awoke, I felt better... hopeful...



remembering the Psalmist's words...
"weeping shall last all the night...
but joy cometh in the morning..."
I got up with a smile on my face...

and a list of financial "things" to do today...
which I have since done...
[cancel the non-working DSL...
redeem my AMEX points as Traveler's Checks"(almost cash...)
change some of my "auto pays" to manual...
redeem the IRA...etc...]

as I walked through the house to let Molly out into the backyard...
the phone rang... it was the person at the VOPU Library...
she asked if I was still interested in the job...
then told me the hours...
[Sat 11AM-9PM,Sun.5:30PM-11:30PM,Mon.7:30PM-1:30AM...
with longer hours during finals[until 2:30AM]
AND needing to work 4-6 AM 4 times a year...]

since I hadn't hung-up yet, [I've always been a "night owl"]
we scheduled an interview...

Monday at 2 PM...

it's a 20 hour per week, Supervisory position[Evenings/Weekends]
there is another 20 hour person who does week nights...
that I can have sub for me/sub for if there are any conflicts...

so today, hope is renewed...

I have NO idea the salary, at this point...
I don't really care...
I'm leaving all the details to Him...

perhaps this means that since my week days & nights are still free...
"something else" will come along too...

of course, I don't have this job yet...
but at this point... at least I have a glimmer of hope...



God is good...ALL the time...