...are the dominoes finally lining up ?

today was another FFers get-together...
and as we were chatting, I asked K...
"So who finally got the band job [that I had interviewed for]
at your hubby's high school ?"
she responded that it was no one she knew...
[there were 4 "guys" from out of the district who interviewed when I did...]

"but... they really wanted you if you could have done full-time"...

[color me shocked AND speechless... yes, really...]

the high school band job [NOT a full day] had been combined with...
elementary classroom music at a nearby elementary school...
[I've never done classroom music...
so it's too late to start now because it's an entirely different skillset...]
so I had lobbied for myself as a part-time band teacher at the h.s. only...
[band, jazz band & guitar are 3 different "preps"...
and band is almost a triple prep by itself...]
having been led to believe by the H.R. person that "things could be flexible"...

and besides that, I just knew...
that "full time" high school band AND elementary school...
would be just too much at this time in my life...
and might send me back into really unhealthy coping patterns...

besides the fact that a full-time salary would be enough to stop my pension payments...
leaving me with no fall-back position...
if I had to "re-retire" before the 12 month year was up...
due to layoffs or poor health...
[if you "un-retire", you can not re-retire until at least 12 months pass...
and you can "un-retire" only once...]

I had just assumed that I had lost out to the younger "guys"...
because they were younger & "guys"...
[been THERE before...]
so it was a nice pick-me-up to learn that I was their first choice...
especially since it was due to my experience & abilities...

it would have been interesting to see what I might have done...
if they had contacted me to "negotiate"...
perhaps I would have agreed to more job than I could handle...
and God protected me from that...
by making them look for "full-time" only...

anyway, what K said next, really stood up the hairs on the back of my neck...

"...my school [the h.s. I collaborated with when I taught m.s.] may be hiring...
someone to assist the current band director,
[who followed me at my old school & with whom I get along very well...]
teaching a period of band & a period of orchestra next semester...
because [of the 6-8 IB program on their campus & the h.s. scheduling being different]
not all students can take music in the current schedule...
and we're up to be accredited, so they have to address this situation..."

when I expressed interest in this...
K said that she would talk to her principal on Monday...
and would really,"talk me up, since her hubby had wanted me at his school"...

when I asked God for work, I was willing to do whatever...
if it was something that I could "do" without killing myself...

the idea of working in a bookstore or library seemed cool...
but I was happiest when I taught band & orchestra...
and I was good at it...

I also like the eastside of Mudville...
eastsiders are "good people" & I always felt at home there...

how like God to lead us around in circles...
past places you could be...
places you'd, settle for...
to that perfect place for you...
if we can only remain calm & trust Him to lead...

so at this point, there are several dominoes on the horizon...

only time will tell if these are the ones...
that will topple over, into others, starting a chain reaction...
but I'm NOT going to worry, because I've seen God work miracles for the last 2 years...
and I have a real peace that if I let Him lead me...
I will see even more... far bigger & more impressive...

I, on my own, have failed and botched most things I tried to do for myself...
I'm trusting Him to take this broken "loser"...
and create from the pieces, a creation He can use...
and He will... if I let Him have His way...

God is good... ALL, the time...